~beginning of time, beginning of time!

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mr. president

well it's official; bush is once again, the most powerful man in the world next to me.


here's to fucking up your next 4 years!
(and i didnt even watch farenheit 9/11 yet!)

"whoomp, there it is, i thought you knew!"


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where the fuck have i been?

where the fuck have i been?
i've been fucking everywhere!
not necessarily everywhere fucking, but fucking everywhere.
is that clear?

where the fuck have i been?
working on the weekend.

where the fuck have i been?
school and studying.

where the fuck have i been?
playing video games

where the fuck have i been?
watching my newly purchased season 1 of the Flintstones on dvd

where the fuck have i been?
out with my peoples chillin' like a villain

where the fuck have i been?
reading; quite a bit of reading

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Butterfly in the sky
I can go twice as high
Take a look
It's in a book
A reading rainbow

i dunno, but ever since my last update, or when i had the urge to update last, i decided to try reading before sleep as opposed to fucking up my eyes looking at this 17" flickering deathtrap.

currently reading:
burmese days by george orwell

i've also been doing a shitload of reserach for some assignments - both being rock 'n' roll related and drug abuse/addictive behaviour related.

when you think of my mindstate, think billboard's american rock 'n' roll in review, rock 'n' roll: an unruly history and the virgin illustrated encyclopedia of rock.

as for scholarly addiction-related literature...bender's "teen addiction" is ok..but Stimmel's "cultural and sociological aspects of alcoholism and substance abuse" fares better. then again, durran & thakker's "substance use & abuse: cultural and historical perspectives" ain't too shabby itself. but that's not to take away anything from weaver's "the sociology of american drug use", south's "drugs: cultures, controls & everyday life" and venurelli's "drugs and society 6th edition". no way, jose!

so yeah...you can clearly see
that i'm a big fucking loser!

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open up your eye's and say "awwwww"

i dunno if you heard, but OHIP (the ontario health insurance plan) delisted several services from it's list of coverage including: physiotherapy, chiropractic treatments and eye exams.

me, being the idiot that i am, only realized this recently and attempted to book an exam for my eyes before the nov, 1 deadline of coverage ended (here's why). of course, there were other idiots out there, just like me who beat me to the punch. unfortunately, i missed the deadline...

anyways, im at the optometrist's office..reading some pretty good magazines. one touched on the difference between the international taekwondo federation (ITF) and the world taekwondo federation (WTF). i just thought it was cool to find out that the founder of the art started the ITF and only after he had beef with the south korean government, they made up their own federation - the WTF. so yea, if youre in taekwondo and youre part of the WTF, then eat a dick sandwich! i dunno why you should do this...maybe i just feel it's the least you could do to give General Choi Hong Hi some props.

going back to my eye exam, he examined my eyes...we talked about profession and school - the usual mumbo jumbo that should occur between patient and health care professional.

so i sit in the big optometrist chair behind those weird-ass looking eye-scope things...he does his thing and i ask how my eyes are.

now here's where it gets weirded out...

jay: how are my eyes?
dr. HOH: very dreamy, my sweet asian prince. yes they are...you very dreamy boy.

i then gulped in nervousness.
the next thing i knew - dude went on his knees and started unzipping my pants - face nearing groin.

actually, naw, that never happened, he just said my eyes were fine.
imagine that did happen though?
that's messed up.
that's actually pretty gay too.

not that there's anything wrong with being gay...i just think that'd be pretty gay.

[insert long silence here]

yanno, gay, as in......happy?

[insert even longer silence here, too, please]

but yea...back to the point. that motherfucking eye exam was a whopping 95 bucks!!
it's all good though. i shouldve set up a visit a long time ago...i was overdue by 2 years. funny thing too...he said my left eye got weaker and my right eye became stronger in vision.
maybe my right eye has been compensating for the frail and fragile weak left eye.
that pussy!
but hey...i guess my eye sight has been pretty consistent..one got stronger and the other got weaker..so really, have i moved along the visual continuum?

all i know is, i now have a new prescription.
and all i know is, i now have an excuse to buy new frames!
holla.

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CONVERSE all-stars
never one to have dialogue full of mediocracy, i decided to post just 2 over the past few days that i had.

(1) with my mom.
topic: smoking laws
setting: watching the evening news

mom: yeah, they should really just let people smoke; if they wanna kill themselves, then let them.

jay: i dont think so, mom. i think that if the government really cared about the well-being of their citizens, they'd abolish smoking as a whole.

m: but that wouldn't be fair. just like the anchor and most viewers stated, that'd be taking away your rights and privilages.

j: if the goverment really cared..seriously cared about their people, theyd make it illegal. we all know the effects of cigarette smoke and how addictive nicotine is. the only reason why governments (both american and canadian and anywhere else in the universe) DON'T abolish smoking is because they make money off tobacco. if you provide a product that people can get addicted to and add a tax to every purchase of that particular product, whether it be tobacco or alcohol, people will repeatedly crave and purchase these products. the politicians in control know this and put a tax on cigarettes. in essence, they make a killing (both literally and figuratively) in profit. and that's why theyll never make cigarettes illegal.

m: how about the high taxes on those cigarettes? those deter the smokers.

j: no matter how high a tax is, if a person craves something to the extent that theyre addicted, they will find a way to get what they want, regardless of the cost and access difficulty. if it was only as easy as placing a high tax on tobacco to deter smokers from smoking, then what's stopping the government from legalizing heroin and crack-cocaine?

just some things to think about.
and my mom's a nurse! (hey mom, what's the deal???)
she's supposed to share my viewpoint.
hhaha sometimes, i just think shes testing my ability to reason.
it's like teaching a baby-bird to fly.

(2) skool friend (relatively new)
topic: girls
setting: late night chat

jay: wow, from all this talk, i can tell you really like white girls *note, friend is asian-male (chinese)

friend: yea, i just find white girls more attractive; asian girls are too much work, too.

j: as in...too much drama?

f: no, i mean high maintenance. i just want a girl who can stand outside and run.

j: HAHAHAHAHAHAAHAHA what the fuck does that mean? is she your pet or something? stand outside and run?????? HAHAHAHAHAHAH

f: HAHAHAHA no, i just mean asian girls are too vain and dont like going outside and running and stuff.

j: ohhhh ok. but you cant say that about all asian girls. that's a pretty bold statement. you just gotta get out there and meet more than your limited exposure.

f: yeah i guess so.

i never really could understand this whole 'hate your ethnicity thing'. i mean sure, i, too went through a white fetish at one point. and hey, even today i dont think there's anything wrong with them. but on behalf of asian girls - to generalize them all to one stereotype of "high-maintenance" and "vain"? that's pretty damn bold. that takes me back to highschool how i used to know some (asian) girls who only liked white guys? what's up with that??? beyond that, they hated being asian??? also, in a recent class, im talking to this filipino girl and, i cant pinpoint exactly what we were talking about, but she goes "i dont date filipino guys". not that i was the least bit interested or hinted at that in any way...focusing on her statement...whatsupwitdat?????

first, to my friend, the girls from highschool and the girl from class...YOURE A DAMN RACIST! and beyong that, your pathetic. how the fuck can you be a racist against your own kind???? that's shit that you'd only see on springer. but oh well.

guess im gonna have to do some shopping. im gonna have to find some of those girls from highschool, that girl from class and my friend and buy them a mirror for their birthday or Christmas cause gatdamn, have you seen a reflection of yourself lately? doesnt sound like it.
im not against interacial dating, by any means. im glad we can all get along at this point in time.
but im certainly not against INTRAracial dating.
like i said, yea, i went thru a short-lived white phase...but maturing and growing older and having old skool morals in a clenched fist have enlightened me...i think asian girls are great!
in fact, i enjoy asian girls just as much as i enjoy smelling my fresh laundry - and believe me, if you knew how much i disturbingly enjoy that..then you'd be pretty damn suprised.

let's build!