i can't understand it.

why do white people tan? throughout history, white folk have degraded and tormented anything and everything that wasn't white - and not just blacks mind you. i mean we often hear that white is good & black is evil. what kind of shit is that?!! back in the days there were white and "colored" sections in buses, washrooms, lunch counters and even water fountains.

today, i dont think race relations have gotten better here in the americas. i mean sure, us minorities are "tolerated', but we're certainly not accepted. there is a definite line here. i know im cynical a lot of the time, and here's one statement that'll support it: it's a white man's world.

but with an optimistic attitude, i'll add, it's only a white man's world as long as you let it be one. so with that said, i hope that all you fellow "coloreds" out there empower yourselves and not accept the bullshit.

build on your communities, folks.

but going back to the white thing. im not racist nor prejudice nor ignorant. and i must say that not all white peeps are bad; just a lot of them. did you catch me smirking?

moving back towards the white thing and the tanning issue - why do white people tan? if they hate coloreds so much, then why try and look like coloreds? if white people hate black people so much, then why did they kidnap them from their own countries only to bring them here, turn them into slaves, build the land, and eventually say "go back home where you came from"? why did white people use the chinese to build the railroads? if it weren't for the chinese, there would be no paper and therefore no toilet paper to wipe their flawless white asses. and why did the white folks take away the red man's land only to claim it as their own?

how come white immigrants are considered american/canadian but i'm not? shit, im a true canadian. i was born here. you should note however, no matter how great this land is, im filipino before im canadian. that's just being real with you.

i see this racist shit all the time...and i almost can't come to terms with it.

to marry a filipina or not?
an older filipina once said to me "jay, dont marry a filipino [eventhough im filipino myself]. it's a lot better to marry outside of your culture. filipinos have too much baggage. if you marry a filipino, youre gonna have to take care of her family too." she's married to whitey.
1. this is the most racist shit ever. to hate your own race is probably the saddest thing in this world. how can you love anyone else, regardless of race, gender, or creed, if you dont love yourself and who you are? how do you look in the mirror at the end of the day?
2. so what if i take her family too? that is not a problem. that is not a concept exclusive to filipinos. this is a universal concept called "family" and what marriage is. sure, you need to have your own family and live your own life, but marrying your partner should include gaining an extended family who will love and care for you just like you should love and care for them. besides, your spouse, if you didnt realize, is also gaining your family, just the same - who the hell says that's a bonus?

american vultures
i used to rock american eagle. they had nice hoodies and shorts. now, i cant wear anything from their. it's too white. it's this white image they have. this white frat image of some white guy with his white friends getting "tanked" at some house party wearing flip flops, a blue and green ruby shirt and some kind of shelled jewelry. none of the posters in their ads reflect my lifestyle and quite frankly, none of their shit catches my eye. i dunno...maybe im not frequenting enough kegger parties nor using a funnel right. no skin off my brown nose. same goes to you a & f you racist pigs.

church
peace be with you...but only as long as youre white. in the catholic church we have this point during the mass when we're asked to shake hands with the people around you and greet them peace. this not only builds cohesion within the church but also a strong church community - at least theoretically. in my church, and in reality, ive had several different instances where a white family in front of me greeted every other person around them except my family. then again, my family is filipino. we have asian/spanish flare to our look - not very fashionable or "in" in the white world. maybe that was it...now that i think of it, a lot of the time, if not most, the people around them, except us, were white. maybe we don't deserve peace. funny...maybe im not reading the same bible as them. maybe im reading the "colored" english version of the good news bible. huh? funny. some of their white english doesnt translate to our primitive colored enlgish, im guessing.

i'm black?...since when?
at work a month or two ago, a white man came into the store looking for clothes. i helped him, he was happy. he walked up to the register to pay. note, there are no black coworkers of mine (unfortunately).
"did anyone help you today?"
"yea...the black guy in the back."
"....you mean jay?"
"uh..yea, that guy."

i am not black. i guess white people just cluster all coloreds into one big black group.
1. he shouldn't of addressed me as black..or brown...or purple. this is just wrong. he shouldve described me visually....my height, my haircut, my location - but definitely not my color. would it be just if i came running to the cashier saying "yea i helped that white guy over there." would that be professional? fuck professional..is that even acceptable by social standards?
2. what neighbourhood does he live in? i feel sorry for these people; they probably think my ancestors climb trees and retrieve coconuts for a living back in the philippines.

those are just a couple...more to come later.

- signed jay, lover of all colors and non colors alike.

white power! but my power too!

p.s. new layout, yall! like you didnt know.