that's my highschool's motto.


i am aged like a fine wine...
but i tend to smell weird at times so i guess im more like a fine cheese.

here's one of those entries where i get serious again...i hate these ones, dont you? then again..i figure my journal needs some balance every now and then.

so i was flipping through the highschool yearbooks the other day and other than the fact that i dont seem to age (more or less), i've been looking like im 20 years old for the last 5 years which is funny considering that at times i act like im 30 and other times more would say im a 10 year old. but anyhow...it goes back to why do people call me out of nowhere?

and in relation to that, why do people think they can just get back in the loop like everything's 'hunky-dorey'. sure, im the type that i can pick up with an old friend right where we left off like it was yesterday...but this applies to most..yes, i mean most people, not all. so as i was saying, i flipped through all 4 year books of highschool and skimmed everyone's picture deciding who was relevant in my life and who wasnt..and who the hell that person was...and where are they now...and how many kids does she have by now?...and how much weed has so and so passed through their bodies since then.

a few minutes ago, i grabbed a coffee and saw my old ex-best friend in a parking lot. we exchanged glimpses for a second - nothing provoking nor inviting...it was just a glance and although i dont know exactly where this entry is going or where im going with it, i think id like to believe and make it clear that i dont intend to make peace or mend friendships or relationships unless other halves are willing to put in as much as i am. cause face it, a lot does and will happen in the span of 4 years - which is where the graduating class of 2000 stands now..and in all honesty, if we havnt talked since then and if there has been no efforts made on either party's side then really...you or me have no value in the bearing or well-being of one another's lives. so with that said, to all i've lost contact with, not cause i haven't made efforts - cause we all know i do make my efforts 200%, but really 'cause youre too proud, i say....


good riddance to bad rubbish.

not bitter...never bitter.
just growing up and moving on. and believe me everyone, when you learn to do this..and you are able to refine this skill, you'll notice there are many more interesting people out there in the world just waiting to bless you with their presence just as you are to them.

(did that even make any sense?)

i've surpassed all this juvenile shit ..and at this age, i really dont tolerate dead weight.


[never bitter...just melon]

p.s. damn some people don't physically age graciously. wow.